Thoughts from a Caesarean Mama
Tomorrow, my oldest daughter turns 5. As I lay awake tonight reflecting on her birth, I remember how very scared I was. I knew that I would give birth by caesarean the next morning, so it was not a surprise. Although I'd had time to prepare, there was nothing that could ease my nerves. I was happy and excited, certainly, but I had a lump in my throat so big I could hardly breathe.
The term "caesarean secrion" likely conjures up some feelings for most moms and moms-to-be. It's the elephant in the room. The one thing most mothers are dead set against.
But sometimes, it happens. The Birth Fairy comes along and sprinkles her magic dust and decides that your baby needs to be born a different way.
It takes a lot of courage to give birth, no matter which way your baby comes. To give in the the unknown, to ride the waves when you don't know where they're taking you. So often, Mamas who have given birth by caesarean feel that they "gave up" or "took the easy way out." They say, "oh I didn't really give birth, it was a c-section. " YES, yes you did! Caesarean birth IS birth.
Be proud, mamas! It takes so much courage and trust to give birth by caesarean. To lay in a room full of strangers, allow them to hook you up to machines and wires, to numb your body and to cut you open. You are truly surrendering. Don't let anybody make you feel less than because mama, you are BRAVE.
So tomorrow, I will celebrate my sweet girl. But I will also celebrate myself. Because I am brave. I gave birth by caesarean and I am stronger for it.